Saturday, September 6, 2014

What and why

I won't force myself on anyone.  My birth mother may not make it and for whatever reason she won't speak to me.  I wonder if it's cuz I called her out and she hates me deep down- but why Wayne her brother over her one and only child/daughter?!? I will see what her wishes are and go from there. 

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Discover

So I realize, after way to many years what has been my emotional demon.  The joys of bipolar.  Then I find out today my mom isn't doing well at all and I don't know what to think or feel.  I see her as a wounded.  Broken. She is so lost, but will seeing her do any good or just make it worse?!?  So much to process I'm going to take a much needed nap.  May God Guide and direct me in this!